Feeling crappy is all i could do and nothing else.
The indescribable feelings that slowly bottling up in me has finally let go .
Crying is such a pain , it doesn't work anymore.
Whatever you say that crying makes one feel better , somehow it just makes one feel more pathetic and weak than ever.
Well , or its only me.

I wonder why such stuffs happen to me sometimes when i don't do any bad sins like robbing the bank or steal cheap pens in popular.
Retribution ?
Of what?
Seeing this painful side of you ..

makes me think i'm worthless
makes me feel what is real pain like.
makes me care for nothing in this world but you.

Receiving "CheerupS" & "Don't WorryS" from some people , makes me wonder...
Do they mean what they say ?
Deep down inside , are they happy to see me in such a bad state ?

And to these people , i have to say thank you.
Cause you make me feel much more determined in what i'm doing.
Ain't just a toy to toss around or a tissue to dry up your crocodile tears.

I know that one day ,
I am able to held my head high .
And show you what i am made of.