I've been thinking about my life this past 14 years yesterday night when i'm going back home , which i don't do so very often cause i'm a person who doesn't like going too deep in my own thoughts and just ended up feeling empty inside.
So i thought , i'm a lucky person who has a complete family , two loving grandma who means so much to me , the money to shop and wasting dollars on arcade shooting games , the money to satisfy my hunger , friends that i could have fun with , friends that i trust.

Friends , mostly everyone deeply knows that friends NEVER last , there's no such thing as FOREVER , nothing is FOREVER , you die and who knows where you might end up in? No scientific proofs , but many religious ones , so which religion would you choose to believe, and how are you sure? You might get the shock of your life when there's no such thing as god but aliens?

You may insist the fact that they do last but time passes like a blink of an eye , you will be working , your friends will too , new people enter your life , you find your love or your "second half" . Where will be space for friends ? When you can just stop by a Cafe and have a cup of coffee to chitchat?
Well , unless your family business is very successful or you find some goddamn weathly husband .
Humans are greedy and self-centered creatures, it's whether people could look through the inner you or not.

Primary school - You go to school , play hopscotch , 5 stones or handgames or do pretend "cooking" with your friends .
Secondary school - Sharing earpieces with your partner in a bus trip , playing lan together , sleepovers , getting together during physical education period , laughter and fun ! ( I'm in that situation now )
Poly/Jc - Different paths , some might have gone overseas , some goes different school from you after the "O" levels.
So this is the turning point , it's really hard to contact each other and are busy with their lives. Making new friends . The past 4/5 years you strengthen in secondary school or maybe in primary school , it's going to be just *snap fingers* ...gone like that.

But , i'm not saying that having friends NOW is utterly pointless and stupid , it's still important to everyone . I can really kowtow do those we are called them "Nerds" who do nothing but just hardcore study and friends mean nothing to do , just mere strangers.
Sometimes when you're troubled and some stuff you just can't tell your parents , who will you turn to?
Your stuffed soft toy sitting on your bed or your pet goldfish?
It might help you get out the misery out of yourself on something , but afterwards you thought how dumb you can be to tell them , they can't do anything , they can't reply you , they can't comfort you .
And you feel so lost , like in a deserted island without a map.
So , that's when friends come in .

I like all my friends , i do.
In fact , there's no one i really dislike, i just learned to forgive but never forget.
Those who can make me laugh and make me feel so comfortable with myself which made me drawn towards them .
So it's LOOOOOVE !

Speaking of love ,
the phrase " Looks doesn't matter , what counts is the inside"
I thought " hey , yeah it's true ."
But after pondering awhile .. if a really (*$(*@#(! *insert hurtful words* girl/boy walk pass you , would you still want to know him/her?!
I DON'T THINK SO?!
More like withdrawn away.
So it's like , how to know someone when that person is *insert hurtful words* ?! You can't even know the inside.
So what kind of "Looks" are they talking about?
HMMM...?

Life is no drama show ,
When you have a plot , a director , castings , recording the "perfect" moments over and over again.
It's just all about me , and i have my 2mega pixel camera to capture MY perfect moments.
No one can mess with it ,
No one.

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I'm bleeding which gladly took half of my soul away , and it's still raining .
So dark outside .
Me feel lonely and scared , HAHA!
Only my room's lamplight strongly shining .
Ok mum just smsed me and said
"I better see your chinese assessment book with the corrections on my table when get back home"


TOODLES !

PS: Pictures will be up soon when i receive the pictures from daphne tonight!